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KIDS-MGMT

2010-06-30T18:30:00.000+08:00

So apparently i got pretty drunk on major lazer, pretty hilarious though. Qis is back in singapore might be leaving off to the states back soon, will definitely miss my time with her cause i really had fun just as much as she did and we went shopping yesterday together bought 2 t-shrits from topman and she bought tons of stuff that cost $800 from Zara,Forever 21, Bobbi Brown & etc. Other than that, everything's good and i mean it. My Friday's & Saturdays will be @ Zouk from now on becoming like a fucking party animal i swear and i've always wanted that, its like a dream come true. Now the fuck up thing is just my debts, well.. i gotta work hard.

shattered

2010-06-12T22:59:00.000+08:00

It just came in my mind that every shit you do, i repeat it 2 times worse but you cant blame me for doing so because you're always the fire starter who just cant possibly think straight. Sometimes i wish i could read your mind and sometimes i wish i could kill myself. But in the end its kinda fair. Looks like there wont be any 7th monthsary for us again just like the 5th and the 6th..

you silly.

2010-06-05T21:22:00.003+08:00

For the love of god.

Now you're making me feel like shit, i dont like it when i feel this way. I just want it as how it used to be only you and me. You're making me think of the worse situation that can ever happen. Thanks alot ya, going MIA just like that.. it really helps. I dont even think you even remembered what i said, i bet you just totally got too occupied with yeah you know who...so much for " yeah i will "

Anyways, accompanied Sarah to New Paper New Face Audtions and she made it, so happy for her & omg danielle is so fucking hot. Not to forget jen accompanied me to Suntec, met Aziffi and the rest at Paragon and then met Suhaila at Istana Park.

Then take bus back home liao lorrrr.

2010-05-18T22:51:00.000+08:00

Dont get started with me, im fucking pissed right now because of two things and dont really wanna elaborate on that. Im in the state whereby i feel like punching someone's head off.

Met up with Suhaila yesterday after her first day of work, had macs and chilled opposite Istana Park, Pretty much enjoyed it, thanks again.

OKAY,BYE.

All night.

2010-05-16T11:12:00.004+08:00

gosh, i miss you & i miss talking to you on the phone already.

Ive been thinking alot about you lately, hopefully we're meeting up tomorrow like what you said and i hope everything goes well in your new current job at the zoo. All the best Sue, hope you'll make new friends and able to cope with the kind of work there since its your dream job (: haha. Im gonna develop my holga pictures later on then we could probably spam camwhoring with my holga or your pentax camera which is sooooo much better or maybe even your polaroid. We'll see how (;

much love,xx.

Damn, it feels good.

2010-05-14T02:06:00.002+08:00

Lately, i have been meeting up with the beys almost everyday mostly like 6 days in a week. On tuesday we were in town the whole day & night till david came over my place and had Chicken Nuggets, French Fries, Sausages and Scrambled egg and not forgetting Rose syrup. We were too excited about the Jakarta trip that we're going at the end of the month, it'll just be me, david and chan. We're gonna party like maaaaddd bitches and we're gonna buy the air plane ticket tomorrow. So, apparently the whole day we didn't sleep then we headed off to pasir ris around 5pm. David went to meet Lisa while i met Suhaila, had macs and yeah i had quite a good time (: Seperated and met david then JB LIAO LOR. 24/7 with the beys was totally worth it. OH YEAH, was suppose to meet suhaila after JB but apparently the guys took so long to do everything and plus i couldn't call anywhere without any autoroam. So suhaila thought i died, got kidnapped,got robbed and etc because i told her i was only gonna be there for about 10-20 mins to buys cigs and makan but THENNNN the guys went to do their bikes -.-

next time you have to visit me at the westside (:
Hahahaha, im refering to you sue.

its always the indians.

2010-05-12T10:19:00.001+08:00

Awesome much.

2010-05-10T23:41:00.001+08:00

Over night in town playing lan
Had Breakfast in the morning with David & Jon
Cabbed back home
Straight to church
Mother's Day lunch @ Jurong bird park
Movie with Garett , David , Chan & Shirley.
Dinner @ Killiney Rd
Bus back home while watching The 4th Kind (MUST WATCH)
On the phone with Suhaila from 1am - 7am

All that without any sleep from Saturday till Monday morning.

2010-05-06T23:59:00.001+08:00

Its been pretty amazing this few days, had alot fun in town with sarah and beys, making new friends, and etc. Not to forget money is finishing like water, im getting a job real soon. Kelly services gave me a call and a text saying that they've got jobs for me till june and its a weekly pay kinda thing (: Hopefully i can get in to Zouk tomorrow for Steve Aoki's Party.

(:

2010-04-27T21:18:00.000+08:00

Fides, came over with my Wild berry skittles aka babies. I LOVE YOU FOR BRINGING IT OVER ALL THE WAY FROM PHILLIPINES :D We really had a good time, sharing stories, eating and etc. We spent hours talking to each other and honestly i have not had a talk like that in ages and after all that unfortunately good things has to end so i sent her to the bus stop and she headed back home. Today was pretty simple yet i enjoyed it. It was really nice to see you fides, really.

Thanks for everything (:

2010-04-27T19:02:00.001+08:00

Julia Nickson & Sylvester Stallone

Julia Nickson & Pierce Brosnan

HAHAHAHA.

She has actually alot more Shows, an Hollywood Actress doing a stupid drama for Singapore. haha

Surrender.

2010-04-25T23:16:00.000+08:00

I seriously have to sort my life out because its like im in the middle of nowhere. Nothing to do and nothing to expect, seriously. I really need a break and have some alone time with my cigarettes, okay i may sound a lil sadistic but seriously. I have honestly never felt like this before, i feel so lost and i have no idea on what to do about it. 2010 pretty much sucks, i miss school, i miss my friends, i miss every fucking thing. sigh. Relationship is out of my list for now, i really have to focus on what im gonna do in my life rather than just going out and shaking my legs at home. I wanna do something, i wanna learn something, i wanna be someone -.- okay, whatever but yeah.

Gone wrong.

2010-04-23T01:22:00.002+08:00

Apparently, i lost my job. I just need a fucking school, other than that everything's going fine better than i expected. Shane's 21st birthday was SMASHING! I feel like crashing some party right now, we had some shuffledelic & techtonik shit going on at Shane's birthday, the drinks we had were amazing. There were more by the way, the SWING was a killer i swear to god. How i wish i could turn back time, sigh.

Anyways, have been hanging out with Risa & khairil the couple of days, might be going to the bbq pit with them on Saturday at Sembawang.

RISA, can you please please get well soon. THANK YOU!

Fuck you & your bitches.

2010-04-14T00:05:00.000+08:00

Someone please give me the strength to carry on this path that im facing, i've never thought this day would ever come. Everyone's telling me what to do & what not to do but at the end of the day, i still have to make a decision and this would apparently affect everything. I hate to admit it but i dont know whether i can carry on. It seems so easy but its so much harder when you try to make an effort but it doesn't work a single bit. It scared the shit out of me and basically everyone, everyone's being there for me when i really needed them. I thank all of you especially Fifi, Debra, Aunty Judy, Sarah, Mira & Farhan. You're my pillar of strength, i have no one else except you guys and a few more perhaps. I have been through alot lately, basically most of the time. I miss Zakiah & Nadirah :(

Ive seen your true colours.

Westside bitches

2010-04-12T02:00:00.001+08:00

Its has been an awesome week lately, no doubt about it. YES!, ive been through alot of shit but i dont really care now. I miss my cousin Debra and i miss my bestie Sarah Elizabeth.

The shit.

2010-03-27T00:08:00.000+08:00

Pay on 31st!

Get back up.

2010-03-26T21:36:00.001+08:00

I miss this picture alot, we had so much fun back then but now we're all busy but at least me and rihyad still keep in contact not like that nigga, forgot all about me and rihyad already. The past few days, have been spending time with my baby and rihyad bey. So far.. everything's alright. I dont want anyone or anything to screw things up, yes life's a bitch but we'll try not to make it one. I shall not elaborate any further.

Channel 5 @ 10pm "Seven Days"

27th March, Saturday

I hope i can leave from work early tomorrow or else ill miss myself on tv.

I Mean What I say.

2010-03-17T22:28:00.000+08:00

I'll be starting school on 17th May thanks to Amira for helping me. I'll be studying in SIRS, i could have start school on monday but i think its too ready and im not ready at all. Anyways, dont forget to catch me on Channel 5 at 10.00pm on Sunday 27th March, dont expect much. Im just doing a really short and stupid role, so yeah. Im really happy with my this and next week schedule cause its really slacky and i think ive been waiting for this for quite some time now & i hope i can get to see my baby really really soon. ILOVEYOU

4th month

2010-03-13T00:33:00.002+08:00

You’re the direction I follow to get home and when I feel like I can’t go on, you tell me to go. It’s like I can’t feel a thing without you around and don’t mind me if I get weak in the knees cause you have that effect on me. Every time we kiss I can’t think straight and I can’t think of anybody else who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you. Months are going strong now and no goodbye, unconditional and unoriginal you’re always by my side. We’re meant to be together, meant for no one but each other. You love me ,I love you so much harder. You stole my heart as fast as I stole yours.

I wont, i promise.

2010-03-09T01:12:00.000+08:00

Only Somtimes.

2010-03-08T23:03:00.003+08:00

Sleepover at Nadiah's place and afternoon with Aidan, pretty much fun these few days. Cant wait for Hairi's birthday on the 21st of March, will be going to Malaysia and we're gonna have a blast for sure. This whole week im gonna work my ass off and hopefully by the end of the month i can do my tattoo! Im sorry baby, for everything.

iloveyou.

Help me.

2010-03-06T22:20:00.001+08:00

I feel so cold, so weak, so sleepy, so tired, so restless and yet i dont wanna sleep because i dont wanna burn my saturday night just like that. Stayed over Nadiah's place last night and fetch baby from school in the afternoon. Anyways, baby found out for me that the show im acting in is releasing on 27th March on Channel 5 at 10pm. So yeah, watch out for me. I think kinda look stupid in the show.

I miss you so much baby.

Time for miracles.

2010-03-05T00:45:00.001+08:00

It has to change for the better or else i dont know how im gonna live like this, this way. Its been horrible, i cant stop recalling on what happened that day. I dont know but it meant so much to me, it felt like i was the most precious thing you've own and it felt sooooo gooood. From that day on, it couldn't get any worse. I knew it, i saw it coming but im gonna stay strong despite the challenges. I miss you more than you'll ever know, i love you more than anyone could. Tracing back those times, makes me smile but the only thing im hoping is for THOSE TIMES to never pass because those times are when i treasure and cherish the most.

Je t'aime N.A

Tsk tsk tsk.

2010-03-02T01:14:00.001+08:00

I MISS MY SHORT HAIR!

I'm in love.

2010-03-02T00:42:00.001+08:00

I love you and miss you so much! I swear to god ill never leave you, no one else can understand me like you do and no one else can show me that love you have for me like you do. Ive seen it with my own eyes and i believe it because i really feel it deep down. You're so caring towards me, really but i dont feel like im doing any of that. I feel so fucked up that i cant show you the love you have for me towards you. Maybe i do but you couldn't see it, i apologise. You've been the best so far sayang, the best i ever had. When im feeling down, you'll always try to cheer me up and you'll never give up. There's nothing more i want or need from you, you've given me everything and i mean it. I FEEL IT SO MUCH THAT I FEEL IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH.

Miracle

2010-02-23T00:02:00.001+08:00

For once im looking forward to work, its been really fun working at Wisma Esprit compared to Vivo. Okay, i sound a lil too enthusiastic for work but i really enjoyed every moment of it so far. They've been new interesting shit lately, like seriously. Anyways, there's nothing much to update about since all ive been doing is work. Meeting up with Nadiah & Hairi tomorrow ^^

SABRINA! IF YOU READ THIS, PLEASE TELL ME YOUR NUMBER! THATS IF YOU EVEN HAVE A PHONE!

stay close.

2010-02-18T20:44:00.002+08:00

Have not seen beys for week now, it feels kinda different without them. We used to be so close, meeting up everyday & stuff but now we're slowly drifting apart or maybe ya'll are just too busy. Well, i guess we're all the same now. Caught up with work now, we'll not be seeing each other as often now but its alright, we all have our reasons. Im damn happy now! :D

Anyways, the day before Mediacorp shoot i saw a Toyol while smoking in my toilet through the window. Trust me, you dont know how fucking freaky it is! I was fucking scared to the max till you cant max anymore. It keeps giving me flashbacks, sigh -.-

OKAY,BYE.

Baik!

2010-02-16T23:58:00.001+08:00

1st day of work and yet so Awesome, im glad to have a gerek Part Timers clan who likes having gossip sessions! I LIKE! Gerek people so far, obviously Mira, Din, Nadirah, Mir & i forgot the other girl's name. HAHA OOPS, work wasn't tiring at all surprisingly! Im slowly adapting to the exposure of my store and im sure there'll be lots of UPS and DOWNS. Working tomorrow at 10am-6pm tomorrow, gerek clan wont be there only after i leave. Saddening much! Ill be fetching baby from on thursday. Friday, Saturday, Sunday & Monday is WORK WORK WORK !@#$%

I miss you so much jen,xx.

Valentine's Day

2010-02-15T19:19:00.000+08:00

Managed to meet up with baby,fifi,jack, her aunt and her uncle super last minute to catch "Valentine's Day" at Kallang Leisure Park at 1.15am. Never thought i would get to see you till your dad allowed you to follow your aunt & stuff and obviously he didn't know that i was coming. Im just really glad or should i say happy that i got to spent time with you on Valentine's day because i thought i wouldn't get to see you. Headed back to Baby's block, stayed downstairs -__- played pokemon , grabbed a packet of sweets from 7 Eleven and smoked my life away till the first bus to my place arrived, its not that bad as it sounds.

I think someone really needs a fucking knock on their head, seriously -.-

WTF.

2010-02-14T21:13:00.002+08:00

HAHAHA. I CANT STOP LAUGHING!
NO OFFENCE THOUGH.

Recap.

2010-02-14T20:19:00.001+08:00

Friday was such a bitchy day for me, baby came over my place while i was having my shoot at Mediacorp for the telemovie show " 7 days " my scheduled timing was suppose to be from 9am-1pm but unfortunately mine ended at 5pm and i got so fucking pissed because baby was at my place waiting for me and i couldn't back out. I felt like shit waking up so early for nothing when my scene was only from 4pm-4.45pm. They could have picked me up from 2pm onwards at least i could have spent time with baby even for a lil while. Sigh..

Rushed back home to meet Zan and then headed to City Hall to meet Sonya,Liza,Danny,Mel,Anto,Opit & Marlyna then headed to F1 pit building. It was a fucking rip off, sound system was a trash and DJ was just a fucking ass noob. It wasn't worth the 20 bucks at all, i could have deserve so much better from other clubs.
Chilled with Marlyna,Anto,Zan,Mel,Liza & Danny after the club. Had cup noodles and stuff, took the first train back home and i was fucking shagged with all the activities i had.

Baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby

i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you

i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you

Another fool.

2010-02-14T02:36:00.004+08:00

Feels like forever.

2010-02-13T23:40:00.003+08:00

Every word, every thought, every sound, every touch, every smile, every frown. All the pain we've endured till now. All the hope that i lost, you have found. I love you more than you'll ever know, i never thought we'd be here. Looking back of the beginning of this and how life was, it was just you and me loving all our friends. I look ahead to all the plans that we made and the dreams that we had. All this time I've been just too blind to understand what you mattered to me, this life we live is not what we have, its what we believe. Im not taking the easy way out, i cant believe that i stayed till today with you around.

Happy 3 Months Baby!

iloveyou.

Chemistry

2010-02-11T18:30:00.000+08:00

Interview at Esprit Wisma Atria
Got the job
Chilled with Sabrina at ION
Took the train back home
A girl from ITE clementi(fucking pretty) kept looking at me
Had like those major eye contact ^^

Hope.

2010-02-11T18:00:00.001+08:00

I feel different and i feel really shaky. Somehow things have change like how it was before and i honestly hate it. Its been bothering me, i've tried but to no avail. I cant help myself but to think of it,the only way to make me feel at ease is making the worse choice in my entire life. It has honestly stumbled cross my mind but i know its not the right choice to make at the moment.

Im confused, paranoid, worried and dissappointed. I need help but all the help i get its not helping me one bit. Is it me ? i dont know. Is it you ? i dont know. I have not prove myself right and i doubt im able to live it up. I dont know

God, help me on this.
Im begging you.

Lets get it on!

2010-02-11T01:36:00.003+08:00

Met baby for a short while (which was totally not enough)
Headed to town to meet David.
Played lan
Talked about Tattoos & our goal for 2010
Missed two 502 bus right infront of us
Took 502 back home.
Im missing my baby SO MUCH.

I wont be seeing you more often when i get busy with work. sigh

Holy Shit.

2010-02-10T00:30:00.001+08:00

Mediacorp shoot on friday from 9am-1pm, i didn't even have to go for any audition. I was just selected like that, fucking gave me a shock when my mum told me. Im gonna play a role as a 20year old boy ( i seriously dont know why they picked me, i mean like i dont even look 20? I dont even look like 17! OMG ) anyways, its a new series called " Tele Movie "

& i miss you sayang. Im really sorry for not fetching you from school today, i was just really tired after i came back from Rihyad's place due to skating and shitzx. I'll get to see you tomorrow!

I MISS YOU SO MUCH.

A True Friend.

2010-02-09T21:49:00.002+08:00

Hours we had yesterday were awesome though there were some downs, we manage to pull it through with Donuts from Dunkin Donuts & Hotdogs from Orange Julius and reminscing times at Starbucks. Take care of yourself love, ill be seeing you on thursday. Send my condolence to your family, i love you babe. xx

Shit happens.

2010-02-09T02:09:00.000+08:00

SK8MAFIA

2010-02-08T02:18:00.000+08:00

Aimar

Day with love.

2010-02-08T02:07:00.000+08:00

LOVE YOU MUCH,XX.

Thats right!

2010-02-04T19:26:00.019+08:00

I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND

SHE'S THE BEST SHE'S THE BEST SHE'S THE BEST SHE'S THE BEST SHE'S THE BEST SHE'S THE BEST SHE'S THE BEST SHE'S THE BEST SHE'S THE BEST SHE'S THE BEST SHE'S THE BEST SHE'S THE BEST SHE'S THE BEST SHE'S THE BEST

SHE'S SWEET SHE'S CUTE SHE'S SEXY SHE'S AWESOME SHE'S FUNNY SHE'S LOVELY SHE'S MINE NOT YOURS SHE ROCKS MY SOCKS OFF SHE LOVES ME NOT YOU

& HER NAME IS JENNIFER.

Memories.

2010-02-02T22:48:00.004+08:00

God, i miss those times!

I'll skip CCA's and classes for Sabrina to play poker and smoke with Quosha, Rihyad & Aziffi. We'll do it like almost every single day and we'll never get sick of it. I remember the game we all use to play and we get all enthusiastic and excited about it (24) we'll go on & on till it gets a lil late then we'll leave and we'll talk about it in school the next day though we got a lil seperated for about a few months we still miss those times we had cause they were awesome! I'll get to see sabrina and everyone else on friday because its Graduation Day! I cant wait to catch up with everyone, okay not everyone but ill try to.

Im sorry baby, for not fetching you from school today due to my tiredness and sleepyness. I just couldn't help it but ill get to see you tomorrow for sure!

I MISS YOU & I LOVE YOU.

Surrender my love.

2010-02-01T22:31:00.000+08:00

Knowing you, getting the chance to, showing your love, it feels as if i have not lived one bit. As im saying this deliberately and considering each word carefully i love you, not only for what you are but for what i am when i am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself but for what you are making me. I love you for the part that brings you out in me. Your adorable brown eyes, your sweet genuine smile, your soft silky hair braided your face perfectly. No matter how deep and fatal the loss we draw, nearer to our allotted span of time adored, we'll bid those farewell as it trails off behind because we'll never fail no more.

Baby, i love you for your faith in me, your sweet and patient ways for the many things you do so often without praise. I love you for all these things and for a million others too but most of all, for what i am whenever im with you.

You are the reason why even at the saddest part of my life,i smile.

Even at confusion, i understand.

Even in betrayal, i trust.

Even in fear of pain, i love.

& in the end the love we take is equal to the love we make.

Unexpected much.

2010-02-01T18:40:00.002+08:00

Something unexpected happened when i was sleeping in the morning and that was one of the best sleep ever till someone snuck in my room and gave me a surprise, like seriously. I never expected anyone to do such a thing, it just made a smile on my face and you getting to see how i looked when i got up from bed and the classic face i had when you directly appeared in front of me, how touched and happy i was. Sigh.. i need my fucking sleep, days go by and my eye bags are getting worse but when i try to sleep i just cant and that just really pisses me off. Anyways, ill finally get to see my baby tomorrow. She's a cute lil sweetheart, hehe. ILOVEYOU

yeah, it feels like shit.

2010-02-01T01:13:00.000+08:00

Dont only say sorry to make me feel at ease, try to make the effort by not repeating the same thing again because it seems like you're not even trying. I honestly dont like it at all because nothing's ever gonna change, i try to be there for you when you need me and i honestly doubt there was a time where i wasn't there for you. Even when you repeatedly say you promised me you were not gonna repeat the same mistake and yet again you do, over & over again. I once trusted your words but now i guess you didn't really meant what you said. It was only for that moment to make me feel better, well its not helping a single bit. It really hurts to know that you cant be there for me while others can. These are the basic things that in all relationships has to compromise with one another and if we dont, its just gonna make it harder for the both of us.

& dont say you're a bad girlfriend, you're not. It just that you have to put an effort and sacrifice your time for me like how i do for you.

YES!

2010-01-31T19:00:00.005+08:00

Turn up the volume, sound effect is a lil corrupted.

Keep it cool.

2010-01-31T18:33:00.000+08:00

Mundane

2010-01-31T17:36:00.001+08:00

Church with Jeremy & Aloysius
Back home to sleep
Lunch at Granny's
Paid a visit to Granny's bestfriend (Masi)

Will i be able to see you tomorrow? I dont know.
I wanna go clubbing so badly!
chao.

Nothing beats today.

2010-01-30T01:24:00.002+08:00

Day started out pretty well/amazing
Met Sarah at Vivo City
Applied for a job at Page One & Topshop
Page One sucks
Topshop Rocks
Back home to sleep

I'll be seeing you tomorrow!

iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou

iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou.

Infinity

2010-01-27T19:23:00.005+08:00

I DONT KNOW WHY

BUT

I LOVE TODAY

If my heart was a house, you'd be home.

Gosh, you're back!

2010-01-25T23:43:00.003+08:00

Sarah, you're back like FINALLY!

Ive been missing you like tonzx and truck loads!

Its good that you're back and im glad we were able to meet up today as well with Jackiee, Ruth,Shirley and Tracy. Catching up at Mc Cafe and made a tour in town for Jobs, Sarah and I are desperately in need of a job, LIKE SERIOUSLY. We've got nothing to do till like i dont know when? Well.. Im planning to go Malaysia to visit my dad because i haven't seen him in ages, to be exact its be 8 years?
THATS JUST MOTHER EFFING LONG!

I miss him so much, he never fails to brighten my day with his never ending jokes. So ive chosen Sarah to come along because i know the both of us will make the trip there a fucking awesome one and we'll totally enjoy ourself! LOVE YOU.

Town with love tomorrow,xx.

I MISS YOU BODOH

2010-01-24T00:02:00.002+08:00

A
great lover is not one
who romances a different
person every night
A
great lover is one who
romances the same person
for a lifetime.

Your eyes are like jewels, your smile are like skittles,
your scent are like roses, your lips are like orgasms.

Cam like whores!

2010-01-21T02:58:00.002+08:00

Awesome day with Nadiah love <3
I WANT COMMENTS!
COMMENT ON TAGBOARD ^^

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ILOVEYOU SWEETHEART

2010-01-20T13:11:00.003+08:00

Shimmering lights

2010-01-20T00:39:00.002+08:00

I've probably said "i love you" a billion times.

I've probably said "i miss you" a million times.

I've probably said " i will die for you" a thousand times

I've probably said "i dont want to lose you" a hundred times

And for all the times i said those words i really meant every word of it and it came from the bottom of my heart. I owe you my life because i know i will never ever regret falling in love with you. You opened my mind to all incessant beauty i used to ignore, a simplistic beauty i never really knew existed.

Currently listening to : never knew i needed.

2010-01-20T00:05:00.002+08:00

Ne-Yo - Never Knew I Needed

For the way you changed my plans

for being the perfect distraction
for the way you took the idea that i have
of everything that i wanted to have
and made me see there was something missing
for the ending of my first begin
and for the rare and unexpected friend
for the way you're something that i never choose
but at the same time something i don't wanna lose
and never wanna be without ever again
you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it's so clear i need you here always
my accidental happily
the way you slime and how you comfort me
i must admit you were not a part of my book
but now if you open it up and take a look
you're the beginning and the end of every chapter
you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it's so clear i need you here always
who'd knew that i'd be here
so unexpectedly
undeniablely happy
said with you right here, right here next to me
girl you're the..
you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it's so clear i need you here always
baby baby
now it's so clear i need you here always

IDGAF.

2010-01-18T17:58:00.003+08:00

Its been pretty awesome so far, every moment spent with baby and moments spent with beys were memories that i'll never forget. Sorry about what i said baby about the whole lying situation. Im fine, not to worry (: School was awesome! Got to see Warda, Ain and Aziffi. I dont know i find Ain damn cute. HAHA, oops. Anyways.. Saw a few chicks here and there, how i wish i could start school now. I miss everything, the food, my teachers, friends and slacky-ness of the school. Gosh, got to see you today (: love love love love it! I guess ill be seeing you tomorrow and the next day and the next day and the next day and the day after. hehe. I MISS YOU BODOH!

Im craving for wild berry skittles

can any kind soul buy for me pleaaasseee! :)

After Party!

2010-01-17T11:34:00.000+08:00

More pikchas on Facebook.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!

2010-01-17T11:16:00.001+08:00

Im glad we managed to spend some time together on your birthday (:

I hope you're feeling better now baby!

IMISSYOU

ILOVEYOU

Please Let It Be.

2010-01-10T13:36:00.001+08:00

SO FUCKING LAZY TO BLOG

ENJOY THE PICTURES

Addiction

2010-01-06T07:54:00.001+08:00

Been very tired lately due to late night meet ups and etc.
My sleeping cycle is totally the opposite. I wake up at night till the next afternoon then it'll goes on and on. My eye bags are fugly, like seriously.

Kinda addicted to tumblr now, its just feels right there.
Blogs are for life stories but tumblr, i feel like its more for inspirational thoughts and ideas.
Plus, blogger's a lil too common now. Tumblr is like the new shit, though i had it like 2 years ago but it apparently died for a year.

So im gonna make this permanently by posting about what i do in blogger and inspirational stuffs in Tumblr.

2010-01-04T08:32:00.005+08:00

Latest updates @ fuckingshitz.tumblr.com

Cliche

2010-01-03T12:34:00.005+08:00

If i had one shot, one opportunity i would leave everything behind. You and me, we wont go far in life. I just know it. I would rather stop this crap now then regretting it in the future. Ive had enough of this, so just take my words and fullfil your dreams.
I wont be the one who'll be there for you when the time comes, when everything crashes im not the one that you can rely on. Ive given up this fight for you, to let you live on your own because i know things will be better of that way. I've been nothing but causing problems, I have to walk this path alone.

So do me a favour
and
Live Your Life.

Siloso Beach Party.

2010-01-01T21:48:00.003+08:00

Got the party started at Azzura with Lydia, Stefan, Kevin , Darwin , Mike , Dexter , Safawati , Hairi and Nadiah then headed to Cafe Delma to Wavehouse to Main Arena. Every moment spent at each clubs were fucking awesome, i really had a time of my life. Hairi got me so fucking wasted at Wavehouse that i did stuff that was way out of my league. The end of the day we ended up at Azzura again because Azzura's the best compared to all the other clubs i swear. Fucking danced like a animal gone wild, i even had compliments from the crowd :)))))

A BIG THANK YOU TO LYDIA FOR A WONDERFUL NIGHT COULDN'T HAVE DONE IT WITHOUT YOU. BEST NEW YEARS EVER!

whose your daddy?

2009-12-31T14:24:00.000+08:00

Thinking about everything just makes me ponder about on how things will be in the future, unexpected moments awaits us. You may think you know me all but you dont. Im a cunning lil bastard. I think about all sorts of stuff that you or anyone else couldn't imagine sometimes even my closest of friend tries to put themselves in my shoe but they just kept giving in. No one knows whats going through my mind and no one will. Keeping behind closed doors are always my first resort.

You caught me off guard with your stunning and devastating eyes, your sweet and heart melting smile, your aura of your beautiful hair and that never ending tingling sensation of your lips. It just sums everything up. Times like these its hard to break through but you gave me hope since the day i layed my eyes on you. You showed me the meaning of true love and i can never thank you enough for showering me with all your love and devotion. You're a part of me, we're one whole, no one can ever break us apart. We've gone through those intense and heart breaking moments in our life but look where we are now? There was never once a thought of giving up hope. Though we got hit down, we managed to stand our ground and got back up even stronger, stronger that we could even imagine. We both know the disapprovals in our relationship but we ain't giving up just like that, it takes more than one to pull us apart. We'll stand our ground till death do us apart.

Yes im truly, madly and deeply in love with you. Extacy is what i feel when im with you, it feels so good and addictive that ill want more and more each time.

Curiousity kills me the most like a dagger sliting my wrist, hammer pounding my brains, needles piercing my heart but now it all comes down to one simple truthful question.

Have you ever regretted loving/knowing me ?

2010 !

2009-12-30T23:29:00.002+08:00

Im really excited for tomorrow's beach party at Sentosa, will be partying at Azzura with beys and hopefully Atherah, Mai and Alfie. Ill get back to you guys on that. Gonna meet darwin and kevin under my block now, Darwin's apparently starving so he wants me to bring down some food for him. Im just gonna pass him 2 plain biscuits and thats all ! Hahaha. Selfish? i dont think so, we're literally out of food :(

excited excited excited excited excited excited excited

2009-12-30T00:39:00.002+08:00

NOT IN THE FUCKING MOOD.

Quick Update.

2009-12-29T18:58:00.001+08:00

Supposed to meet Sarah Elizabeth but i was kinda tired. Talked on the phone for like an hour when i kinda just woke up ? Awesome much! I love talking to you, I swear we'll burst out laughing like some random people. She made my day till i fell asleep again and now im gonna head to town to chill out with old friend Atherah and her DSLR camera!

baby, you know you're worth waiting.
& ill definitely prove him wrong.

2009-12-29T00:13:00.002+08:00

"what hurts the most"

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that loving you
Is what I was tryin to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But i'm doing it
It's hard to force that smile when I see my friends and i'm alone
Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, living with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken

I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

Hanging by a thread

2009-12-28T23:56:00.000+08:00

I was brave enough to face him in person, i was strong but he came back even stronger. There was nothing much i could say or do. He has every right to approve or disapprove in such case cause his your dad after all. He did make sense on certain stuffs and made some reasonable points but isn't it too early to think about this? We just wanna be happy as for now, if we would to plan our relationship and expect everything to be according to plan then what love is there? We dont want to expect anything at all, we just wanna see how far we can make it through together but if you think thats what you want for your daughter, so be it i would have to respect you on that. In your eyes im just like all her ex's and you've probably heard her say all those stuff like a million times.
Am i even special ? i doubt so, its like history's repeating itself.
I know i told you that ill keep on fighting and ill never give up but in such situation there's nothing that can be helped. It feels like ive given up, i dont know.

it feels good.

2009-12-28T02:39:00.002+08:00

The past few days has been really amazing, attended Singapore Idol Grand Finale at the Singapore Indoor Stadium. Already expected that Sezairi would win, i mean c'mon. Singapore's population of muslim are like a million or more thats why Taufik and Hady won the previous season cause girls are the one going GAGA over guys where guys dont go GAGA over girls plus Sylvia's filipino, Hardly anyone would vote for her and the muslims will conquer singapore idol for the next following seasons even 10 years down the road it'll still be a muslim might as well make it like Annugerah ( however you spell it ) or Malay Idol. Mother and Relatives are sick of it and they're really fed up. They really wanted someone different this time round but i guess we all saw it coming -.-''

TABITHA WAS FUCKING HOT. Okay apparently quite a number of people know me which i have never seen them before and some of them were from my school but i didn't know they knew my name. They were like " eh, thats stanley" or "its stanley! its stanley" im like shiiitt i dont know whats happening so i just smiled to myself. HAHAHA but its pretty awesome hearing your name called out it just feels like im noticed by people or im just known for some sort of reason.

baby, i really hope you like the dress and card i got for you. I was kinda scared that you wouldn't like it or something till you called and told me that you love it and all. Well.. im just happy i made the right choice and THANKS SARAH FOR HELPING ME OUT BY TRYING ON THE DRESS. hahaha, ill see you on tuesday to chill out and probably see you on saturday to partayyy before you leave to Aussie.

iloveyou baby.

optimistic

2009-12-25T19:22:00.002+08:00

Im glad you managed to attend the Christmas Midnight Mass with my Family and beys. Even though we didn't had much time to spent with each other i still appreciate you for making your way down here with the help of Andrea. Im so sorry i wasn't able to pass you the card and the present i have for you but we'll exchange gifts soon. I love the letter you wrote for me, the effort and time you spent for the card i could really tell already on the cover letter. ILOVEYOU

I miss you so much baby, i really do. Mama treats you like you're a part of the family now and im so happy to hear that. Everything that you've done for her, she really appreciates everything. In fact, you're the only girl she really likes. It feels so good when my mum approves of me having you. She has no doubts about our relationship, she'll even help us even. You put a smile on her face (:

I hope we could spent some time with each other real soon :(

You're in my prayers always.

The Shitz

2009-12-24T20:52:00.001+08:00

I had a time of my life with Kevin and Darwin on kevin's birthday, it was really awesome and im glad kevin enjoyed himself and so did we. IT WAS THE FUCKING BEST NIGHT EVER, went to 3 different clubs and the shitz that happened! Gosh, i conquered the dancefloor when the song Sexy Bitch and I got a feeling Remix by David Guetta played and the girls, OMFG.
Speechless (:

Another awesome night to come later.

2009-12-23T00:30:00.000+08:00

Bey,

I know how you feel but you really shouldn't take this all too seriously, especially mummy bey. You know her very well, as long as you're here it satisfies her someway or another. We want you back or maybe i want you back. You're the only one i can talk to in the family and the only one that i can turn to, we need each other more than anything else. I know this has been going through your mind most of the times and thinking of a way to solve it but there isn't bey. You just gotta live with it, you gotta make a choice and live up to it. You know how much you mean to me now that you're in camp i miss you more and more each day because when i get back home its the same old shit. We cant be like before where we do shitz and stuffz in the middle of the night or have a one to one conversation just the both of us. I miss all of that even though it wasn't that often but still.. Even if mummy doesn't show that she cares or loves you but you know deep inside her heart she really do and you know you've got me as a brother no matter what happens. I'd die for you bey, so please come back home.

what a day

2009-12-22T22:59:00.003+08:00

What an awesome day out with Sarah, gosh. Its been so long since we've met and the stories and gossips we had was like never ending, especially the one at Coffee Bean. HAHAHA, YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT BABE. Sarah and I managed to get everything we want and we bought a shades in Cine for just $5. She got hers in Green and mine in Blue :D

Thanks for coming babe, i really really appreciate everything. If it wasn't for you ill be like a lost boy. LOVE YOU,XX.

omg babe, i already miss you.

Flashbacks

2009-12-22T12:55:00.002+08:00

Alright, all's good. I dont know how the story got twisted, i mean like it all came down to me ? Gosh, you think that ill ever be crazy over for a girl to do such a thing ? You even broke up with your boyfriend because of me, how wonderful and how shocking. Its a lucky thing i did the right thing by not contacting with you or else my reputation would be dead and gone. I trusted you but i didn't think you'll come to the extend to do such a thing. Its all over, a lil funny when i think of it.

Well.. Thanks for the time we shared together
but
I just hope nothing like that ever happens again not now or ever.

Omg, what now?!

2009-12-21T21:44:00.000+08:00

AVATAR WAS FANTASTIC! That was the first sentence i said when the movie ended! It seriously was awesome! Went shopping around for christmas presents for PEOPLE and caught a Avatar. Got my christmas outfit all set :DDDD While watching the movie i receive a message from Mai that just spoilt my mood on watching the movie it got me all thinking and worried at the same time, i hope everything's good.

Town with Sarah tomorrow, cant wait!xx.

Vivo City

2009-12-20T11:21:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the late update, hmm. Outing with Mai , aziffi , Rihyad and Wani was kinda fun. Especially during poker! hahaha, we all knew what happened. I would never swear on that again, it was such a risk. Luck was on my side i guess. Though baby couldn't make it, it turned out great after all. Thanks bey!

heroine

2009-12-19T23:23:00.001+08:00

It has been a hell these past few days spending time in town getting myself not enough rest and forcing myself to hang out with beys but for baby, its a totally different thing. You mean the world to me and as you can see baby even though i didn't sleep and spend a night in town i came down to see you when i was really shagged and restless but it didn't matter because i just wanna take a look at your face and thats all that matters. Baby, so sweet to get a gift for MOTHER & STAR for mama's birthday and Star's christmas present, you really dont have to get me anything you've done enough. All i want for christmas is you, thanks for everything baby. Mama really appreciate it, mama loves the present.

iloveyou.

your love is the sweetest.

2009-12-17T19:26:00.000+08:00

i swear i wanna do this.

Headed to town and met Lydia bey and Fie and then later on i managed to meet up with Baby, im really glad i was able to meet up with you again! Lets do this more often! HAHA. I'll never get bored seeing you because i love your company and everything else about you. Bumped into Sonya and Mel and SONYA, YOU LOOK LIKE A FUCKING MINAH FROM FAR but close up not too much. Go do something to your hair or something lah! Hahaha, mel should remove her smiley. Had PastaMania with Lydia :) then headed off to church and when i thought i couldn't see you again i did! Was having a BBQ while pantat called and i rushed down to meet her around my area and thanks baby! ILOVEYOU.

Spent a night in town with my laughing stocks (Kevin & Darwin) i swear we were fucking laughing the whole night, gosh. We're always laughing about the chinese people. HAHA, oops.

love it.

2009-12-15T20:36:00.000+08:00

I love my fucking phone! I can do whatever i want with it, its damn sexy i tell you. hahaha anyways, thank you sayang for being able to meet me last night, it was awesome! I really appreciate it, lets do it again! HAHAHA. iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou imissyou imissyou imissyou imissyou!

Queen, here i come!
hehehe.

Fear is the heart of love

2009-12-14T00:50:00.002+08:00

"Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark.
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
cause we'll hold each other soon
In the blackest of rooms. "

POWER LAH DEY!

2009-12-13T00:41:00.003+08:00

13th December

HAPPY 1 MONTH BABY!

More to come for sure! hahahaha. Super confident, our first month and we've already been through alot. More obstacles to face and mostly more happy moments together.

Mum's looking forward to see you in Christmas, she's even more excited than i am. How weird is that?!
love you baby.

Dont go.

2009-12-12T21:50:00.000+08:00

I realised what ive done wrong, i have been too harsh on you and expecting too much from you. I've been a bad boyfriend, maybe your worse even. I just really miss you so.. I have been too selfish not to think about what you're going through and not putting myself in your shoes. Situations like this, makes me blame myself even more and i realised that im suppose to be caring for your health and not making things worse. Im really sorry for what ive said for making you feel this way. I really want you by my side right now so much that ive made you feel this way. Im such a selfish boyfriend that you have, how can i be so heartless/selfish? sheesh.

i apologise from the bottom of my heart.

sheesh.

2009-12-12T13:25:00.003+08:00

Why are you doing this to yourself ? Seriously, you shouldn't even take it to heart. Take it as a thing that you should work on or something. If you dont want to, thats fine with me. I have to just live with it then, i just wanted to tell you that, thats all. No harm, i know the truth hurts but i just gotta let you know how i felt all these while. No secrets from each other remember?

You keep blaming yourself, sheesh. When are you ever gonna stop doing that? Its never gonna help and ive repeatedly told you like a hundred times not to ever do that.

I dont want to see you like this.
Heading to meet Mai, Aziffi, Rihyad and Wani now.

OKAY,
BYE.

love me , love you.

2009-12-11T03:06:00.005+08:00

Baby,

you turn my world upside down, you make my world revolve around. You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, that never fails to brighten up my day. Day and night i think about you wondering why i love you and it came to my senses that there's nothing not to be loved by you and there's nothing i dont like about you. I want the world to know that my love for you is beyond imagination and beyond hesitation. There's no more posion killing my emotion i will not be lonely with your devotion because you're my remedy of infatuation. There's nothing left to say and i wont waste another day, i just hope you'll be with me tonight then everything will be okay and if its alright with you then its alright with me. Baby, just take this time and make this memories so that we can look back and remember those heaps of moments we shared memorably.

So long that you've been missing, its good to hear you again after all those hell ive been through these past few days. I'll love you forever and ever through thick and thin through anything. Through our ups and downs i know we can settle anything and there's nothing that can ever part us from each other and even if it would i'll fight for you because i know you're one person worth fighting for.

Im truly, madly and deeply in love with you.

Down to Margaret Drive

2009-12-09T23:06:00.003+08:00

A day with Atherah, Rihyad bey and Aziffi.

I could never thank atherah so much for making this day happen after the day she kinda " ditched " me in town, it was about time.

visit my facebook for more pictures.

baby, come back.

2009-12-07T16:34:00.000+08:00

Im really glad i was able to listen to your sweet voice before you left and though we didn't had a proper goodbye but at least it was better than nothing. I really hope you'll have fun there, making new peers but not getting into trouble. Im really gonna miss you so much during these 5 days of hell, wait a minute. I miss you so much already :( Gosh, how i wish i could have you in my arms. Staring in your gorgeous eyes and your beautiful smile, it makes my heart melt everytime i see them. I thought i could send you off to school or pick you up when you get back but i guess your dad already had the honour of doing that. I hope nothing bad happens to me when you're gone cause if it does ive got no one to turn to. I love you so much.

you got me tripping.

2009-12-06T22:12:00.001+08:00

im drunk with rihyad bey riught now i dont know whatt the fduck i m wrtiign but i fucking miss you like crazy jennifer. I dont know what to do without you siaaaa.

i miss you like crazt, im happy everything with you an your parents are alrivht now. Im crazy over you, i marry you also can siaaaa. HAHAHAHA, im sorry ah jen. But i wosh you were with me right now getting hight with me right now.

i love you Nurfirkha amalina jennifer ku.
hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe.
you sexay thang!

baby,

2009-12-05T02:18:00.000+08:00

Currently talking to Erika on the phone now, telling her about all the Random Cb Story and She's doing the same thing. SHE SAYS HI! -.-''

Baby, a few hours without talking to you feels like hell and imagine a few days without talking to you, ill go psychotic. I really dont know what to do without you, i feel like a cb right now and only Erika knows exactly how i feel cause she's also a cb thats why understand each other. (no offence erika)

I cant take it baby. Ive never felt like this before and it feels like im losing you and like im missing out on everything, it just really feels like crap.

i miss you so....

paranoia

2009-12-04T02:25:00.003+08:00

Bey, i need you more than ever now.

Things doesn't feel right without you, no one else can help me besides you.
Shitz has happen during these few days and there's no one that i can turn to
during those shitty days. Everything isn't going as well as it seems and i need
your supervisions because im lost and worried. I feel like there's
something in me that's changed and it isn't right because i know im not like
that and i think you know that too. Though you mean everything to me, its
really hard for me to do everything you expect me to do. I make mistakes but
never on such unnecessary purposes. That was so uncalled for and it made me
ponder and worry some times for our future.

Will it ever be the same as it did before
Or
was before never the way it was?

You tell me.

OKAY,

BYE.

Couple of the day goes to Rihyad bey & Wani!

2009-12-04T01:33:00.001+08:00

Sabrina, it was about time! hahaha. Nice to see you though :)

It was Pretty Ugly.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIRAH!

2009-12-04T01:12:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIRAH!

I am really sorry for not wishing you earlier, i got really caught up with stuff and i didn't keep track of time. Yeah, you may think i such an ass and stuff but i really did remember. TSK.

well.. i just hope you'll have fun later with everyone and everything else goes smoothly. Im such a bad friend, i know! :( at least i made a post for you :D

Ill see you around soon yeah? xx.

hehehehe.

2009-12-02T22:53:00.000+08:00

I JUST HAD TO RB! HAHAHA.
Had to stand up for J :D
Cant let her name down, so yeahhh :)

You got me boom boom pow.

2009-12-02T20:17:00.000+08:00

best ke pe?

Tomorrow will be a better day with rihyad bey,aziffi and hopefully baby can tag along because i think Wani and Mai would be tagging along as well so we could have like a triple date or something AND CAMWHORE LIKE NUTS.

Jennifer.

2009-12-01T22:48:00.001+08:00

Baby, i miss you like crazy.

Not receiving a call from you just feels really shitty and just thinking about you makes me wanna meet you so badly, You're sick and i should be there for you but unfortunately i cant. I haven't seen you for like what? A week now? this doesn't seem right at all. I MISS YOU SO MUCH, staring at the phone just praying that you'll call. Just to overcome the thoughts and worries about you will make me feel so much better.

Whatever it is now, just take good care of yourself and have plenty have sleep. Please take your meds and try and eat proper meals and dont miss out on any. Drink plenty of water alright? iloveyou.

AWESOME.

2009-12-01T00:46:00.004+08:00

Geraldine was the hot topic of the day, right Aziffi? HAHA.

I fucking miss you cb!

Day and Night

2009-11-29T10:34:00.015+08:00

I MISS YOU
I MISS YOU

I MISS YOU

Its been so long since ive seen your sweet and beautiful smile , your devasting eyes, the sensation of your lips . How i wish i could have all of them now and how i wish you could be right here with me all night long. The smell of your hair and the touch of your lips makes me go crazy each time it happens and when we part, it feels like there's a part of me missing.

2009-11-28T00:27:00.001+08:00

Fucking fun today during work, aaron and roderick was working thats why! i swear ill miss you guys like literally. Monday there will be a class outing with Mdm siti, will be going to the Singapore Flyers -.-'' then to makan (her treat) then bowling :D

BUT FUCK, RIHYAD BEY WOULDN'Y BE AROUD. BEY, IF YOU'RE READING THIS:

IT WOULDN'T BE FUN WITHOUT YOU AND I MISS YOU SO MUCH SIA FUCK, REMEMBER WHAT WE'RE SUPPOSE TO DO WHEN YOU COME BACK. HURRY YOUR ASS UP CB!

I MISS YOU MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE RIGHT NOW. HAHAHA