Take Off Your Pants And Do The Aftermath

Supposed to meet Sarah Elizabeth but i was kinda tired. Talked on the phone for like an hour when i kinda just woke up ? Awesome much! I love talking to you, I swear we'll burst out laughing like some random people. She made my day till i fell asleep again and now im gonna head to town to chill out with old friend Atherah and her DSLR camera!

baby, you know you're worth waiting.
& ill definitely prove him wrong.

"what hurts the most"

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that loving you
Is what I was tryin to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But i'm doing it
It's hard to force that smile when I see my friends and i'm alone
Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, living with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken

I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

I was brave enough to face him in person, i was strong but he came back even stronger. There was nothing much i could say or do. He has every right to approve or disapprove in such case cause his your dad after all. He did make sense on certain stuffs and made some reasonable points but isn't it too early to think about this? We just wanna be happy as for now, if we would to plan our relationship and expect everything to be according to plan then what love is there? We dont want to expect anything at all, we just wanna see how far we can make it through together but if you think thats what you want for your daughter, so be it i would have to respect you on that. In your eyes im just like all her ex's and you've probably heard her say all those stuff like a million times.
Am i even special ? i doubt so, its like history's repeating itself.
I know i told you that ill keep on fighting and ill never give up but in such situation there's nothing that can be helped. It feels like ive given up, i dont know.

The past few days has been really amazing, attended Singapore Idol Grand Finale at the Singapore Indoor Stadium. Already expected that Sezairi would win, i mean c'mon. Singapore's population of muslim are like a million or more thats why Taufik and Hady won the previous season cause girls are the one going GAGA over guys where guys dont go GAGA over girls plus Sylvia's filipino, Hardly anyone would vote for her and the muslims will conquer singapore idol for the next following seasons even 10 years down the road it'll still be a muslim might as well make it like Annugerah ( however you spell it ) or Malay Idol. Mother and Relatives are sick of it and they're really fed up. They really wanted someone different this time round but i guess we all saw it coming -.-''

TABITHA WAS FUCKING HOT. Okay apparently quite a number of people know me which i have never seen them before and some of them were from my school but i didn't know they knew my name. They were like " eh, thats stanley" or "its stanley! its stanley" im like shiiitt i dont know whats happening so i just smiled to myself. HAHAHA but its pretty awesome hearing your name called out it just feels like im noticed by people or im just known for some sort of reason.

baby, i really hope you like the dress and card i got for you. I was kinda scared that you wouldn't like it or something till you called and told me that you love it and all. Well.. im just happy i made the right choice and THANKS SARAH FOR HELPING ME OUT BY TRYING ON THE DRESS. hahaha, ill see you on tuesday to chill out and probably see you on saturday to partayyy before you leave to Aussie.

iloveyou baby.

Im glad you managed to attend the Christmas Midnight Mass with my Family and beys. Even though we didn't had much time to spent with each other i still appreciate you for making your way down here with the help of Andrea. Im so sorry i wasn't able to pass you the card and the present i have for you but we'll exchange gifts soon. I love the letter you wrote for me, the effort and time you spent for the card i could really tell already on the cover letter. ILOVEYOU

I miss you so much baby, i really do. Mama treats you like you're a part of the family now and im so happy to hear that. Everything that you've done for her, she really appreciates everything. In fact, you're the only girl she really likes. It feels so good when my mum approves of me having you. She has no doubts about our relationship, she'll even help us even. You put a smile on her face (:

I hope we could spent some time with each other real soon :(

You're in my prayers always.

I had a time of my life with Kevin and Darwin on kevin's birthday, it was really awesome and im glad kevin enjoyed himself and so did we. IT WAS THE FUCKING BEST NIGHT EVER, went to 3 different clubs and the shitz that happened! Gosh, i conquered the dancefloor when the song Sexy Bitch and I got a feeling Remix by David Guetta played and the girls, OMFG.
Speechless (:

Another awesome night to come later.